Equestrian Chill


Nothing new to report. I got halfway through bareback month before I had to retire back to the saddle. Fiction is too full of energy and I'm too weak from fighting off a virus + accutane that I need the security of a saddle.

We've kept to a steady schedule. Fiction continues to be amazing. Warms up immediately. Zero fuss. Yesterday we worked on canter extensions and collections on a circle, while maintaining loose and fluid contact. It was the first time we were able to achieve this without Fiction getting strung out. My seat has also improved - I no longer shift forward and then pop back (thus catching air) at the canter.

I wanted to briefly talk about just how much has changed over the past year. Yes, I've improved with my riding, and Fiction has improved with his training, but there is now a fundamental difference with how I approach my riding career that I believe has played an important role.

I no longer ride with a hard-set goal in mind or a thirst for competition.

Before, it was always Rolex this, Rolex that. That eventually melted down to potentially running Intermediate. Then when we dropped to Dressage - getting our gold medal.

Now? Maybe we'll eventually get our Bronze medal and then see where life takes us.

This isn't to say that I don't intend to show. I do. In fact, I have 3-4 schooling shows penned in alongside a handful of recognized shows, provided Fiction and I are ready for First. And I still love competition, but now there is no rush. No pressure. I'm riding purely for fun and enjoyment, with the added perk of showing.

I used to look at more dedicated riders with a sense of anxiety. Would I ever catch up to them? People say you never get anywhere without hard work and dedication. Am I dedicated enough? Will we ever even be able to show at a recognized show? Will anyone ever look at me and call me a good rider?

Then I realized that while someone people live and breath this sport, I don't. I love my horse and I love riding, but I also love a lot of other things. I love to hang out with my friends, walk my dogs, exercise, play video games, read books, binge-watch Netflix, travel....all of which also takes up time. I'm not the type of person to be out to the barn 7 days a week training, and that is OK.

I needed to give myself permission to be myself, and once I did I began to relax and enjoy riding for what it was to me: a fun hobby. And guess what? My relationship with Fiction is better than ever. He has become the biggest cuddle bug and seems genuinely happy to see me (something he did with everyone else but me before), while I'm content to snuggle him, stuff apples in his face, and chill on his back for some very zen riding (whether it's just a trail ride or actual work).

So yeah. I'm happy. Fiction's happy. And that's all that really matters anymore.


Cantering Bareback + A Hack


Today we had our second canter bareback. I have video proof too!

While it doesn't look amazing, he's soft, off of his forehand, relaxed, and relatively balanced. Pretty much all I could ask for. The departures need work, but most of that is me. I still get very tense asking for the canter while bareback - you can clearly see it too. That's why this bareback month is more to concentrate on me than it is on Fiction.

After our ride in the outdoor arena, we went on a very long 30-45 minute hack, also bareback. My horse was absolutely perfect. So calm and relaxed. I had an amazing ride on the buckle with no worries.

As the days pass, Fiction continues to morph into a dependable, level-headed partner, and I am falling in love with him more and more.




So, I, uh, may have just impulsively bought tickets for a month long trip back to Korea & Japan in August. This will be my third time in both places. My heart lives in Asia, so excited doesn't even begin to describe my emotions right now.

Current itinerary includes lots of booze & clubbing in Korea, followed by celebrating my birthday with people I consider my second family in Japan. Oh, and climbing Mt. Fuji! <3 <3

I'll be chronicling my adventures here, of course, so expect non-horsey things during that stretch of time :)


Quick Video


Unfortunately, things around here have been relatively quiet. I'm battling the Accutane meds again (at least I think that is the cause, though it is weird that it crops up now after 2 1/2 months of feeling completely fine) - constant exhaustion, lack of appetite, weird stomach sicknesses, etc. I dropped nearly 5lbs of weight in a month and it's noticeable. For now I'm dealing but it makes barn time hard haha.

Fiction lost a shoe last Wednesday and my farrier was on vacation. Luckily one of the barn owners does farrier work on the side and was able to tack the shoe back on on Saturday. But Fiction was a bit ouchy and I was sick, so I didn't ride him again until yesterday.

Since it's bareback month, the ride wasn't too extensive. Lots of walk work and a good deal of trotting. We're working our way up to the canter, but I want to fix my balance a bit more. Every time I lose my balance Fiction gets upset and shoots his nose up which makes riding him bareback even harder. It's a nice exercise for both of us - I can learn to deal with his movement without tensing up, and he can learn to relax a bit when I fuck up.

For a week off + being inside most of the day (the fields are shit), he was perfect. A bit less forward than I would like, but that was more because I wasn't pushing him (his trot while bareback is so hard to sit) rather than me holding him back.

I showed my mother this video (which is actually a video of his warmup trot - he only improved from there) and she looked at me and said, "What have you done with Fiction? Who is this horse?"

Exactly. I seriously couldn't have even dreamed about hopping on this horse after a week of no riding for some nice calm trot work bareback this time last year. And while we're not perfect by any means, it's really nice to be able to relax while riding, especially bareback.